nero Diario

Without Question There is No Answer

When posed with the questions, "Do you believe in God?" or "What

religion are you?" my answer is "undecided". Now to save you the

trouble of asking what the hell that means, and more importantly to

save myself the time of having to explain it all, I am going to explain

my answer to you as best as I can.
By ‘undecided’ I do not mean atheist, or agnostic, the definition which

I bestow upon it is simply that I have yet to explore all options

available, and until I have it would be nothing more than naive and

altogether prove unsatisfactory for me to simply accept something as

the truth without the knowledge of other alternatives.
By simply believing what we are told is right and wrong without any

justification or probable explanation as to WHY some things are right

and others are wrong, the only quality we have gained is ignorance. I

find it to be incredibly ethnocentric when the only arguement you can

provide regarding the opposing beliefs of another culture or religion

is that they are wrong only because you are right. Without in depth

exploration of the belief system of others, and without knowing what

their beliefs are based on, and furthermore the attained knowledge of

what there beliefs even are how can you classify them as false?
The absence (or lack) of reason as well as ‘moral education’ leads to,

and inevitably is the sole cause of, ignorance. Socrates once said, or

I should rather say implied, that ignorance is the seed of all evil. If

we have a clear understanding of what is and is not ethical in a

general sense and we are educated enough to combine that along with

inductive reasoning then the result should undeniably be positive.

Along with those qualities, however, comes the ability to think for

ones self and question authority. My explanation as to why religion

does not condone the possession of such qualities is quite blatantly

that they do not hold the answers to the questions in which those

qualities would put forth.
Consider this; when it comes to religion there are no facts, no

verifiable evidence supporting any case, no substantial meaning, and an

over all general lack of answers. So until I have attained an agreeable

amount of knowledge concerning ALL religions I find it in my better

interest NOT to conform or classify myself as ANY of the given choices,

but instead I continue on my quest for knowledge and understanding.

Alone
        From childhood’s hour I have not been
        As others were; I have not seen
        As others saw; I could not bring
        My passions from a common spring.
        From the same source I have not taken
        My sorrow; I could not awaken
        My heart to joy at the same tone;
        And all I loved, I loved alone.
        Then- in my childhood, in the dawn
        Of a most stormy life- was drawn
        From every depth of good and ill
        The mystery which binds me still:
        From the torrent, or the fountain,
        From the red cliff of the mountain,
        From the sun that round me rolled
        In its autumn tint of gold,
        From the lightning in the sky
        As it passed me flying by,
        From the thunder and the storm,
        And the cloud that took the form
        (When the rest of Heaven was blue)
        Of a demon in my view.

The Nature of the Beast

I’ve had some very major changes occur and have come out the other side a far more humble creature. It’s a hard thing to stare one’s own naivety in the face.

I’ve been a fool on many levels over the course of the last few months. Dark times. Far too busy running from other’s expectations and feeling sorry for myself. Extremely poor judgement has gotten the better of me on more than several occasions.

Lesson learned.

For those of you whom I’ve neglected, I appologize deeply and sincerely. I will be making more time for loved ones. You’re all that really  matters. I’ve been so self absorbed that I stopped taking the time to express how much my friends and family mean to me. There is no excuse, but I will make it up to you.

For those of you who’ve stood by me, waiting for me to pull it together, and holding nothing back… thank you. I appreciate it more than I can put into words.